22 days

 

I miss you. Everytime I wake up I want you to be next to me, so your pretty face would be the first thing I'll see in the morning. I thought going home will be great. But that was before anything started happening. Then I thought 5 weeks won't be enough to stay at home. Now I wish it was just 2 weeks, because I miss you so much already. I remember being on my way to the airport. I already missed you by then. I knew that 5 weeks of feeling kinda lonely is coming and I hated it, but couldn't do anything about it. And the fact that you miss me so much is making it a little bit easier. I'm happy. But not right now in Poland being so away from you Yoshi. I wish I could just go back, stare at you and your body, drown in your eyes, be suffocated by your lips, stroke your hair, back and hold your hands so I'll never let go of you. I wish it's only one more week to try everything we talked about. The thing that is making me feel even worse is that I have no intimacy here. No space just for myself, so I can talk with you for hours, while everyone else is sleeping. I want to see your face, your big beautiful smile and the look you're giving me when you stare at me. I wish I could be there for you, when you need me the most, when you feel sad or angry, or just when you want to hang out and do nothing. You need to be strong. I need to be strong. We managed to survive 2 weeks by now! And then once I'll come back I'll continue making you happy, because that's what you deserve for and what I want for you! 

Send love to Hulk! I know he misses me! Tell him I'll take care of him once I'll come back. I'll do you good. WAIT FOR IT!
Also - I think you stuck for good in my mind, as since last Wednesday, I dream about you every night. I stopped telling you, as I can't remember what the dreams were about. Not always at least. But they are all really good. It's almost like you are here with me all the time.